Sometimes in my life, I go through blank moments. I don’t know what exactly these moments are called. But I think the term ‘blank’ suits better than anything else. I can relate to today as an example of such blank moments.
There is no specific routine as to how often the blank moments come back to me. I just have them occasionally. On a day with blank moments, I feel really, really bizarre. In fact, I can’t even describe how I feel. It’s as if there’s nothing in the world except me. It’s more like me in a desert. Lost and confused, I just keep staring at the monitor in front of me not knowing what to do. It’s not caused by computer obsession. I love working on computers but it’s definitely not an obsession. In fact, if I go out, I feel like I’m walking in a desert. If I go to my bed trying to catch a sleep, I fail. It’s as if everything goes blank.
I’m glad that I know the word “blank.” Not just that, I’m glad that the word ‘blank’ even exists. Otherwise, I’d have a really hard time describing how these moments really feel. Bizarre, it’s close to what I feel. Or maybe, it’s an adjective of the moments. What type of moments are they? Bizarre. What moments are they? Blank.
I spent a blank day. I didn’t literally do anything useful. Just kept sitting on my desk doing mostly nothing, slept for a few hours, tried to play games but didn’t like it, and then I went to the store to replace a game but the replacement DVD didn’t work either. It’s like a bad day for me. A bad day with a blank state.
At the end of this post, I’m still not sure why I even started writing this post. I don’t usually open up the Add New Post panel without having anything specific on my mind. I don’t post ramblings, usually. But today, I just felt like letting others know that I experience such blank moments and I’m wondering if you ever experienced something like this, too.
Would you care to share your experience in case you had them as well?