They say failure is the pillar of success. Did they say how many pillars does success actually need?
There comes a time when you know that, despite putting all of your efforts into achieving something, into becoming someone, you just can’t. There comes a realization that no matter how hard you try and how deeply you believe in yourself, it just doesn’t work. There comes a time when even your own convincing notes to yourself sounds like blatantly spoken lies. Something that you made up just to keep yourself going and going.
In a never-ending direction.
And then one day you stop to think for a moment, have you actually arrived anywhere? Are you any closer to what you want to be? Do all those years of what you believed to be baby steps towards becoming who you want to be actually have gone in vain?
One day, you look back and notice that you haven’t improved; not even a tiniest bit. You are who you were when you started off. Your constant efforts and self-confidence just prove themselves to be nothing but rants. You stop believing. You stop believing in your own lies. You finally get your head above the surface and see that you actually cannot move. The universe has not given you any fuel to move forward. You realize, you were never meant to be who you want to be.
You stand shocked; devastated in disbelief. You don’t know why it had to be you. But by then you do know that it’s not going to work out. You have to step out of your lies and believe in the discomforting reality.
You have to face the fact that you weren’t meant to be with people. No matter how hard you try, it just won’t happen.
At that very moment, you instantly recognize your fate.
Some things are never meant to happen. Some dreams, no matter how childish, are never meant to be real, even if it’s so real for everyone else around you that it doesn’t even count as a dream.
And then you know that it’s time to give up. Be a workaholic and lose yourself in your work. Because, you can’t be who you want to be. It’s just easier and much painless to accept the fate and move on being “okay” with it.
Because not everyone is gifted with everything. Sooner or later you have to give up on things that you can never achieve, or never become.
It’s better to do that sooner. When you know, it just won’t work.
Or do you?